Beloved V!

HE
Discernd her
Naive
Innocent as a lamb
Fairness, radiating
Colours of the rainbow
shimmering on her.
She looked
Like a goddess in human form.
Yet
he sensed her,
a mere mortal
crimson throbbing beneath her fragile shell.

He
Desired her.
Everything she had to offer
Excited him
To a frenzy
So intense he couldn't wait!!
Till his time!
Till the gathering dusk!

Finally,
he stepped inside her world.
A scented breeze
Through her window.

And

SHE
Thought he WAS an angel!

Her heart fluttering like a leaf
She open up
Completely.
Her colours & memories painting
Murals IN him.

She danced for him
That night.
As ALL others had done before her!



As the day dawned,

THEY
found her

Still.
For eternity!
Her shell emptied of hues.

Yet with a peace & a smile upon her lips.

I am sorry!

I am sorry

I could not see
Why
Your ever so bright light was out

I am sorry

I did not know
It was me you were keeping out
With
Locked doors
Shut windows

I am sorry

I did not understand
It took so much
To give a little space
For a chronically ill of heart

I am sorry

For
That
Which
I am!!

Let go....

What do you do
When your heart is breaking
And your eyes well up
of torrential rains??
And you search the ends of the earth
To find a reason
For the storm,
And return empty!

WHAT do you do, then?

You let go, then
Of EVERYTHING!

Of everything you like !
Of everything you loathe!
Of everything that binds!

Let go! With a haste!
Let go! With a love so pure!
Let go! With the sapience;

That all living things big or small
Seen or unseen
Born of matter or born of light
Decay
Over time!

Remember;
The only certainty is
In the death of all who live!

Remember this
From the depths of your cells!

And
You let go
Of YOURSELF!

"As gently as a leaf renounces a drop of dew with the touch of morning light"

~ Thank you my good friend AA for MOST of this one :) ~

Mosaic

I let them all fall,

my bandages

to let your eyes feast.

On a skin permanently tattooed 

with scars.

Every inch of it!!

It tells a story, the mosaic!

Of countless births of suffering.

Of pools full of blood & horror!

I know you are afraid

of what you lay your eyes on,

the ugliness.

I see it in your eyes.

I see it it in you.

YET,

Don't run away

yet!

Abide with me please

Until i wrap myself up again.

THEN,

You can depart 

As quickly as your steps would carry

& never lay your mind on me again.

Someone!

"It's an extraordinary thing to meet someone
who you can bear your soul to
and who will accept you for WHAT you are.
I've been waiting
What seems like a very long time
To get beyond what I am.
With you
I feel like I can finally begin.
No measure of time with you is long enough
But lets start with forever!"
~Edward Cullen- Breaking Dawn~
All the nights & days
Of my long life I've seen pass by
I spent
Waiting for you.
I've felt your presence,
In the wind
In the flutter of leaves.
The colours of the changing seasons
Gave me hope
You were out there
Some where.
The small birds
fleeting from the northern skies
told me
Stories about you.
& I filled my dreams with
your hues,
Your essence,
your scent.
I filled them with YOU.
& so I waited!
I waited!
Waited for YOU!
& I've been waiting what seems like a long long long time!
..................................................
Im a spent woman now,
Body & soul!
All my existence used on days bygone.
But my heart
I saved for you
And you only!
Still beating with the same rhythm
as before.
And it will beat on
Just for you!